What was I thinking?

What was I thinking?
In 2013, when I opened Plume I had been a Stay-at-Home mom for almost 5 years.  Luci & Chance were almost 5, and Anni was 2 1/2.   I had wanted to be a Stay-at Home mom more than anything.  Especially after it took 6 years to have our first babies.  I loved it and was so thankful that we were able to swing it.  But it was hard.   I don't have to tell many of you that.  You know.

In April 2011, I had three kids 2 and under.   I had willingly given up my career...my body...any sense of myself...and I would willingly do it all over again a thousand times.  I'm acutely still tied to the pain of infertility and those who's stories don't have a happy ending like mine.   But by 2013 I found myself starting to wonder, and even looking forward to, what life was going to look like when all the kids were in school. 

What would I do?  

And then that summer the chain of events that lead to the opening of Plume happened.  You can read all about that in detail in my Journal HERE.   The next thing I know, the twins were in their final year of preschool before starting kindergarten and Anni was heading to the shop with me every Thursday and Friday.    

I was a small business owner.

What was I thinking?

In my mind at the time they were getting so big. 

But they were just babies. 

So sweet and silly. 

My friend and family photographer Lana took these pics 2 days before I opened Plume on my 40th birthday.  
Anni doesn't ever remember the shop not being a part of her life.   She doesn't remember what it was like to be home with me when I was "just mom".   

I'm really not sure where I'm going with all of this other than school (in-seat, online, whatever) is starting soon and my twins are entering 6th Grade.  And, well I'm just struggling a bit.  We have our kids signed up for in-seat classes at the moment, but if I'm being honest, I don't think I'll mind delaying their entry into a middle school building if for some reason they switch to online. 

I find myself, as all parents do, sitting here wondering where the time has gone? 

Have I done all I can to prepare them for this new chapter?  

Did I make the wrong choice opening a business and putting so much of my time into it? 

Again, what was I thinking?

This is the tub that's still in the shop, now full of pillows...

I'll never really be able to look at it and not see this...

Excuse me while I go cry my eyes out for a minute...

How about you? 

Is it one of those days for you?  Maybe a cupcake will make it all better!


If you need cupcakes for an upcoming event (Or to cap off a good cry!) you can order HERE.  Order any size box (4, 6, 12 or 24) and fill it with all the flavors you like best.

Macarons are also available HERE

And even order by the TRAY if you're planning for a party.   Trays of 35 Macarons are $60.  Choose up to 2 Flavors. 

"Everyday" Bouquets are also a great Pick-me-up!

"Everyday" Bouquet Bright & Cheery (15 Stems)  $24.99
"Over-the-Top" Bouquet Bright & Cheery (30-Stems)  $49.99
"Everyday" Bouquet Subtle & Sweet (15- Stems)  $24.99
"Over-the-Top" Bouquet Subtle & Sweet (30-Stems)  $49.99

Thanks for listening to my reminiscing.   I'm actually going to be behind the counter a bit more these next couple weeks as we have gals starting back to college so stop by!  
Would love to see all of you!